This isn’t about you
or anything in particular
so it might not
entertain or inform
hopefully
it won’t bore you
After feeling like
I’ve been in a dense fog
for the past 4 months
I very recently
(within the last 2 weeks)
began waking up feeling
jovial
fearless
and tranquil
if I told you the reason(s) why
you’d never believe me
because I’m not sure
I 100% believe myself
(for now, we’ll keep that one
stored under lock and key)
but I don’t care
because (for now)
it doesn’t truly matter
if the clarity
and current happy feeling
disappears tomorrow
I will have had 2 weeks
of mercy, joy and wonder
but I know that I wouldn’t
go right back into
the dark place I was
before
because I now can feel
the great love and concern
that so many of those closest to me
have for me
when I consider this
and factor in
the unconditional love
my dogs show me
(heck, even the cat
seems to love me)
it all starts to feel as though
i’ve turned a corner
found a proper place in the light
to stand back and
soak up what the universe
has been telling me for ages
but I rarely bothered
listening to
(I have no idea why)
I don’t know everything
I barely know
a lot of things
but I do know that
I now have a sweet spot
where I can keep my heart
nearby and safe
anytime I want and need it
and just knowing it’s there
gets me upright
and into the shower
and into clean clothes
and it lets me be
the functioning working stiff
I need to be right now
before the storm of
getting out into the world
and doing my
part-time fantasy work
for a few weeks
just before Christmas
and the 7th year anniversary
of my Mother’s passing
someday
maybe sooner than later
i’ll place my heart
back into it’s old and rightful
cob-webbed covered place
and finish out this tale
with a surprise ending.
(no, not that, silly)
and…..cut!
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